It took me a while, but I have learned to “trust the process”. To trust my life. To trust my decisions and my instinct. To trust me.
I celebrated a minor step forward yesterday and was met with encouragement from a total stranger. “It’s all about progress!” she said, and that really is true. The beginning and end are important, but there is no story at all without the middle.
So I have learned to appreciate the frustration that comes when I try to tackle something new. The discontentment I experience when I don’t move forward as quickly as I think I should. The anger that freezes my fingers when I know what I want to say, but not how to say it. The sadness cloaked around my heart when I disappoint myself. The times when it feels like all I’m doing is treading water or running a hamster wheel. Every piece of what I go through – every lesson I learn – it all has meaning.
"People go to college because not going to college carries a penalty. College is a purchased loyalty oath to an imagined employer. College shows you are serious enough about your life to risk ruining it early on. College is a promise the economy does not keep - but not going to college promises you will struggle to survive."